Jim Brickman feat. Wayne Brady - Beautiful

I really love this song.... and its dedicated to.....

honesty.....

Why I don't want to see a counsellor...

1. Why pay some one to hear? is it just a job they are doing?
2. I want genuinity?
3. Seeing a counsellor is akin to taking the first step? It is self help? Do they want to help?

GOsh I'm behaving like Will....

I feel like taking a long walk.. away... You don't have to find me unless you want to.. for even if you did, I'd doubt it... cause you were reading this...

Honesty
If you search for tenderness
It isn't hard to find
You can have the love you need to live
But if you look for truthfulness
You might just as well be blind
It always seems to be so hard to give

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can always find someone
To say they sympathize
If I wear my heart out on my sleeve
But I don't want some pretty face
To tell me pretty lies
All I want is someone to believe

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can find a lover
I can find a friend
I can have security
Until the bitter end
Anyone can comfort me
With promises again
I know, I know

When I'm deep inside of me
Don't be too concerned
I won't ask for nothin' while I'm gone
But when I want sincerity
Tell me where else can I turn
Because you're the only one that I depend on

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

Once again... Mr Joel if you please...

I'm frustrated

Hmmm... am frustrated with my PCG.... its so... I don't know how to put it.. but a typical examp and scenario which we discuss deals with conflict. and the out come is this

The person is either fired or asked to resign. The helping process is not there... no one bothers to find out what is going on. No one shows Christian Grace. (I put the word Christian because its not mere courtesy.) They don't bother to consider why the person reacts like that. BPs!!!!!!! arrgh

To be fair.. I've got some got friends from there... but really... I just don't like the way things are there... Sigh....

Also another thought came to me this time.. Suppose if some one asked you, why do you go to church? what would you say?

Some might say because he has done so much for me.

Some might say because he died on the cross for me.

Some might say because I love him.

What if I told you that for the first answer, you don't know what God has done for you unless you claim full sovereignty. (Which I suspect you don't)

What if I told you that the second answer is cliche because, that is something we learnt in church too often and we do it week in week out.

What if I told you that you don't really love God because time and time again we really screw up big time.

Why then do you come to church? Well.... the simply reason... Grace... This is a place where the wounded meets...

Hmmm don't know what I'm saying but well....

And so it goes

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who know

Been listening to Mr Joel.... You know that's probably how I feel. Took time yesterday to watch my favourite show of all time. Guess I'm very much like Glenn, really, I find it very difficult to express myself. But isn't anger just a form of expression as much as tears are?

How do I share? unless I know some one wants to hear? I'm a millipede...I'm a cactus.. but i REALLY can't help it...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eELB6NxrZ7A

Its here

I've fallen...

Quite a bit.. things are better but maybe not...