half-hearted run

HMmmm.. I just got back from my run........ Its been a while. I guess things have been changing and well.. the start to ministry hasn't been as expected... Its as the old cliche goes... like a race. Its time where you almost want to quit... to say that whats's the point. I don't really even know why I can't focus at all.. These things here don't energize me at all...

Then again its my fault... If I had made a choice earlier and Censored would have been a whole lot easier. But would it? I've been forced to go against the bible. Man shall not live by bread alone ... unfortunately most of these days I've been sticking to that diet... cause I'm not really paid much and so well.. what to do? I have to do what is needed.

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